I believe that we all have a deep, down insatiable yearning for God. And I think that that yearning is, itself, God's touch on our soul. If we want to know God, to directly encounter God, I believe we can best begin by attending to that desire--that is a trace of God's fingerprints on our soul.
It is an odd thing. The more frequently God touches the soul, the more insatiable is our yearning for God. It is a loving touch that creates a wound--and the only cure is more of God (which creates a more of a wound!)
My life partner once said that she thinks that God "trolls" for friends with mystical experiences. Most people have a mystical experience or two (or three). But then the next step is up to us--will we drop everything to pursue God? Teresa says deepening prayer requires silence, solitude, suffering and humility. The suffering comes of its own, but we have to create the silence and the solitude. I think humility is a gift.
There have been times in my life when I have dropped everything to focus on God. It is a wonderful/aweful thing to become so besotted, so ensnared by LOVE. But in my experience, it is also somewhat cyclic. After a while, I am tempted to be captured by other idols: entertainment, greed, pride, just about anything. And I forget "the one important thing". If I am lucky, I have an opportunity to turn back, to repent, to fall back into the arms of my beloved, who is always waiting for me.
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